of life and her magical ways...

a return to innocence...

"Meeting you was fate,

becoming your friend was a choice,

but falling in love with you

I had no control over..."

- Mary Oliver -

thursday night

and there's a beautiful full moon.

went for a walk when i got home,

a late night walk.

just to gaze, just to take a deep breath,

of the chilly november air.

and just to talk

to her. this moon.

la lune.

and we had another good day at work.

and there are days, it simply amazes me

to see the way we're growing,

the impact we're gaining,

the position we're taking.

simply the way things are unfolding.

and we still have such a long way to go,

to where we want to be,

but that's all a part of the journey.

and there are so many visions right now,

each day bringing new ideas, possibilites,

and that itself is so inspiring.

and some of it we can steer ourselves,

but so much of it evolves on its own.

i had a good conversation about that with my boss today.

he had a brilliant idea and then we just spun it a bit from there.

and even with this too,

i already look back in retrospect and realise

that this chance, this challenge,

this too was all a part of the masterplan.

little wishes and dreams i had long ago.

so strange how life,

with all her detours and traffic jams

still brings you there. keeps you on that map.

and although i'm so far behind on projects, on schedules

and i don't know when or how i'm to do it all,

but there's a calm inside of me

and i just know it's all going to be fine. just perfectly fine.

and i'm so happy with my team.

they have to put up with a lot working with me,

but damn they do a good job of it.

i don't think i'm really your conventional boss.

yes, i usually do a lot of things unconventionally.

and needless say,

as much as i can play with the figures and statistics,

i run my business and my company on emotion

and with instinct.

the emotion and instinct that comes from deep within.

and i like to think

that is what will make the difference at the end of the day.

but on days like today,

i like the way we can smile and laugh together,

the way we reach our goals together.

i start off every morning

after i get my cup of coffee

and ask them what they want with the day...

it's almost like it's a game we play.

but i just want them to manifest their goals,

to speak it out, and say it out loud,

as though we carve it into a stone.

i see us as a little family too.

and that's something else we did today.

we officially created a family.

and one day, i want this to be a big family.

with the good that we can do and we can share.

i've always believed that to receive, you have to learn to give first.

and so many times, we kind of forget to be thankful and grateful

for all the things around us.

and although the company is still growing

and we too are just in our children steps,

i want to make whatever difference we can.

personally. and professionally.

so we've been looking into adopting and sponsoring a child

that we hope will grow with us.

even if it's just a small symbolic way.

and with each year, i want this family to grow.

it's one of the other goals i've made.

it was also important to me,

that we find an organisation that is sincere,

and that the money, the sponsorship

goes right to the core and right to the reason.

so we've researched and looked at this and looked at that

initially i was hoping to adopt and sponsor a child in asia.

maybe cambodia or vietnam.

but today we picked el salvador. a little girl in el salvador.

and i just hope we can make a difference

and bring her some good

and watch her grow.

other little stories of the day...

tristan and isolde arrived in the mail.

and when i read the prelude of the book,

i found myself smiling. again.

because just as that thought of this gift had come into my mind

a few weeks ago,

the words i found written there were like a little confirmation

that yes, this was just the book and the story that was mean to be.

that yes, franziska will understand and she'll create

what i can envision, but what i need someone else's voice to speak...

and i know she can.

and i won't say a word. i'll just simply give a gift.

and these words of the prelude, they speak of gold and amethyst rings.

of love and desire.

and that's what this thought was all about.

about gold. about magical stones.

because this gift is meant to be

a subtle inspiration,

and a quiet muse

of a wonderful new jewellery collection.

saying all the things with its beauty

that i don't think i can say myself.

"Wem niemals Leid von Liebe kam,
dem kam auch nie von Liebe Lust.
Wie Tristan und Isolde nahm
ich Lust und Leid an meine Brust.
Leid ist ein amethystner Stein,
die Lust is Gold und fasst ihn ein.
In dieses edlen Ringes Glanz
erst ründet sich die Liebe ganz.
Nehmt, Liebende, vom edlen Stein,
nehmt viel vom roten Golde!
Ihr alle müsst selig elend sein

wie Tristan und Isolde."

it's just my subtle and quiet way.

anyhow. i think this girl has to find her way bed.

tomorrow promises to be another busy day.

and saturday it's off to freiburg,

to pick up my pieces from janete zamboni

at maureen's.

and that's yet another sweet paris story

of coincidence

and what a small world it is after all.

so strange,

how everything these days

seems to pivot and spiral itself

around bijoux. and paris.

like a playful nudge, a tender poke,

something taking you by the hand

leading. guiding.

yes. at times i do wonder

what it is the gods are saying.

what it really is

written between these lines.

of life and her magical ways...