when in france...

tuesday.

and we're meant to be long off and away

to france already.

like about over an hour ago.

but i swear, my boys here need more time getting ready,

than i do.

one or the other is in rotation of falling asleep,

and then the panic breaks that the day is almost done.

i give up. i honestly give up.

and if the bro doesn't find his way out of the shower

and the bathroom soon,

i'm seriously going to be worrying about him.


and remind me not to give them food.

as in "don't feed the animals"

because this mysterious sleep syndrome,

occurs relative to breakfast, lunch or dinner.


had an interesting interview for a position in pforzheim yesterday,

applied for the position of a buyer,

however they proposed two other positions

in which they could equally envision me in fulfilling.


i have to admit that the second position

caught my intrigue the most.

it would include much travel,

at least on pretty well a monthly basis.

monte carlo, hong kong, south africa, las vegas, copenhagen,

paris, and the list goes on.

and although in sales, more so a project management position.

with a great palette of already existing customers.

the third position just as intriguing,

and definitely more scope to grow and climb the corporate ladder,

however i know too little of the company,

nor this industry to possibly evaluate if that would be in my interest,

or intrigue as well.

initial role as the project manager for a start up subsidiary company,

leading the position of managing director

[if you manage the project just fine that is]


again, this was just the preliminary interview,

and that still doesn't mean a thing.

so like with most things in life,

i'm simply going to roll the dice, take the chances

and see what evolves.

really, it's all that one can do.


i'm not progressing as i'd like with my english resume,

and i really fear that i won't have it done in time

to apply for the one position in new york,

that most has my appeal and attraction at the moment.

and that one has a closing date of the 30th of june.


i'm not even sure what my objective is with this at the moment,

maybe not even so much getting myself to new york,

but simply stepping towards the dream,

the ambition

and yes, taking the chance. releasing the energy

and seeing what other energy this attracts.

it's all about the change in my life,

and at times, there's so much at once,

it leaves me bewildered with me,

and a bit dizzy at times.

frightening, but very very welcoming.

and it's something, i've so long wanted to do,

have even passed down previous opportunity,

maybe for the fear, the doubt, the uncertainty.

and that's simply the shadow in me i'm challenging these days.


however, the only change i am welcoming at this moment,

is simply his royal highness we call my brother,

to get himself out of the shower and moving downstairs

direction the car.


this is by no means, a case of sanity.